there is beauty in the breakdown.
I swear by it.
people change, that much I recognize and respect.
it's the pain and suffering some endure to be someone they're not.
just be real with me. speak truths and we'll be better off.
tell me you don't love me and leave me here alone.
don't leave me hanging. it's so cruel.
you make it forbidden to think of you, when really; it's all I can do.
you make me want things that i've never wanted.
I feel like I should be deserving of love.
you make life seem perfect with you.
perfect with all it's flaws.
there are things about you, that I can't stand and they drive me crazy.
and then there's everything else.
you are in no way perfect by anyone's definition.
but you are perfect for me.
we fit together.
we match. you see it. I see it. and so does the rest of the world.
stop denying me.
we're both losing here.
we're losing a lot.
it'll turn into a regret.
and we don't need anymore.
come back to me. and I promise; I can make you happy if you'd only let me.

I love you. even though you don't want me to.

I must be crazy & blind to think you'd care.
But it's okay. Cause this makes me feel better.
So I'll deal with it.
I'll deal with losing you and wanting you. and thinking that I need you.
When we both know it.
You need me. You want me.
You just shouldn't have me.

Oh! But wait.
You had me already.
Hmm...
Maybe you should just keep me.
Or maybe you took what you wanted and left.
But I don't think that's like you.

Oh fuck it.
I'm going to get drunk.
And. Yea.

Bye.