[c&p'd from PR]

maybe, the whole time, i was dreaming.
i thought i was acheiving the impossible. we only dream of things like that right?

just agree with me and make my day.

i concur. the possibilty of that being real & true is just as likely as me losing my dyslexia.

shut up & move on right?

it's a slow process, but i'm getting there.
you cannot hinder my goals.

dreams may be impossible. but you? you are positively and most definately a figment of my imagination; an excuse; a waste; and a bittersweet memory.

and to that, i say goodnight & goodbye

Lie to them like you lie to me.
Can you count the number of times you've seen them, been with them, spent quality time with them, on one hand?
Lie to me like you always do.

Save yourself the time & energy.

Don't come around no more. Don't tell me you love me when you don't mean it.

Let me keep my heart whole for someone who deserves it.

Guys, & Gals.
I've been smoking too much weed.
Someone should grab ahold of me.
Make sure I don't slip away...again.

<3...*

there is beauty in the breakdown.
I swear by it.
people change, that much I recognize and respect.
it's the pain and suffering some endure to be someone they're not.
just be real with me. speak truths and we'll be better off.
tell me you don't love me and leave me here alone.
don't leave me hanging. it's so cruel.
you make it forbidden to think of you, when really; it's all I can do.
you make me want things that i've never wanted.
I feel like I should be deserving of love.
you make life seem perfect with you.
perfect with all it's flaws.
there are things about you, that I can't stand and they drive me crazy.
and then there's everything else.
you are in no way perfect by anyone's definition.
but you are perfect for me.
we fit together.
we match. you see it. I see it. and so does the rest of the world.
stop denying me.
we're both losing here.
we're losing a lot.
it'll turn into a regret.
and we don't need anymore.
come back to me. and I promise; I can make you happy if you'd only let me.

I love you. even though you don't want me to.

I must be crazy & blind to think you'd care.
But it's okay. Cause this makes me feel better.
So I'll deal with it.
I'll deal with losing you and wanting you. and thinking that I need you.
When we both know it.
You need me. You want me.
You just shouldn't have me.

Oh! But wait.
You had me already.
Hmm...
Maybe you should just keep me.
Or maybe you took what you wanted and left.
But I don't think that's like you.

Oh fuck it.
I'm going to get drunk.
And. Yea.

Bye.